No one can do it for you. The choice is ultimately yours. While people can try to push you through the process with all of their might, you and I both know that no one can make you do anything that you do not want to do. When you are alone in your room; when no one is watching, will you continue to resist? Or will you cave into temptation because you will not get caught? When you are having a bad day, will you resort to doing it one last time to help you get through?
“No one has to know, right? I’m having a bad day. I just need a quick pick me up to take the edge off.” At least that is what you tell yourself. All it takes is one time for you to begin plummeting right back into that downward spiral. Though you were gaining forward momentum, somehow, each fall leaves you worse off than the one before.
It monopolizes your time. More and more things go undone as you continue to pursue your guilty pleasure. It constantly plagues your thoughts bombarding you with visions of your next fix. While you know it is bad, you just can’t stop. You feel enslaved; in bondage. But, what can you do? That’s when you know that it has overtaken you.
The thing with addiction is, it does not like to share. It is not content to co-exist. It wants to dominate your life until it owns you. What is done in the dark will come to the light. You think no one can tell. They might not know the details but trust and believe they know that something is wrong. It leaves a stench no matter how much you spray. Though it starts small, eventually the residue begins to reek.
Let’s be real. It is hard to overcome addiction of any kind; no one can deny that. But, with will power, you will come out victorious. It all begins with the mind. Before you are in a compromising situation, you must determine what you are going to do. Decide now how your future is going to look. No matter how far you have gone or how many mistakes you have made, you can change if you want. The journey is hard and there are many obstacles ahead. But as long as you are fighting for your freedom, even on a bad day you will still come out on top. In the midst of the struggle you will find strength because you know there is a cause. That gives you the tenacity to continue to press on. It is only when you give up that all hope is lost.
Mind over matter. You can do it. You just have to believe. The question is, how bad do you want it? What will you do to get free and stay free? Will you make the sacrifice today to have a better tomorrow? The truth of the matter is, you will pay; either now or later. Like compound debt, addiction only gets worse with time. Every action has a reaction; some consequences have lasting effects. You may walk with a permanent limp and a scar but if you fight everyday like there is no tomorrow, prayerfully you will still have your life.